The anticipation of the magical Black Veil Brides concert: The feelings one concertgoer goes through

Here I am again writing about the lovely Black Veil Brides. I regret nothing at all. *Insert Andy Not Giving A Fuck Meme here* I love these guys for the rest of my life. I am about to see these guys in 5 days with my mom as a her Birthday present from me. Her birthday is on October 2nd. The concert lands on October 3rd at the Knitting Factory in Spokane, WA.

What do I have to say about this. Almost every positive word in the world. This show means the world to me. I am not only to give my mom the best birthday present a daughter could to a mom. I am also surrendering as an ex-BVB hater and closing that chapter of myself behind me. Even though I have moved on and gone to better things. It is time for me to go to the source and tell them for my wrongdoings. Plus tell them that I love them with all my heart for coming into my life during a difficult time. BVB is truly one phenomenal band not because of the fact that they write and play amazing songs. Its for the fact that they have helped thousands of peoples lives including myself. Its truly inspiring and amazing. Glad to be apart of the BVB army and family.

I appreciate everyone that has taken me in with open arms already in the BVB army. I mean I was a hater of this band that helped all of you and you all choose to love me and care about me. I am so thankful and more than appreciative of it. You all could have shunned me out and hated on me. But you all did not. But instead you all gave me love and support. My gratitude is everlasting cause of all your actions over the course of the months I have been fresh in the BVB army. I wish I could give you all more than just thank yous. I love you BVB army with all with all my heart.

The feelings I am getting now for the impending Black Veil Brides show is astounding. I have been waiting for more than three months for this show. The fact that I am seeing them live in 5 days is just brain racking to me. I can’t believe I am going to see them live. Its just……

I anticipate on having a good time and nothing but a good time. I hardly ever get to go to concert’s that very much due to the fact that I live on a strict income, my medical issues, and travel issues. But when the perfect time does strike that I do get to go do these things. I take the opportunities and go forth on them. I cherish every waking moment of any concert I go to. If i meet any musician at a concert its like having mashed potatoes and gravy with fries. Its very awesome.

Concerts feel like a second “Home” to me. I feel at home their among people that I have a lot of commonalities with and share like interests. I love the fact that bands bring together people. Sometimes bands help people find their soul-mates in some cases. Its beyond fascinating at the world of music and what it does for people. It brings people closer and brings joy and healing to Earths human beings.

Music is very powerful in that sense that I would like to say Black Veil Brides music hits it at every “Take It To The Next Level” height in music. I love the fact that Black Veil Brides music can spin off discussions in a lot of positivity and the dreaded negativity posts, comments, tweets, etc from the BVB haters which I was at one point in my life. I do apologize to BVB for being one though(As I said before I have moved on and started a beautiful journey being a lovely BVB fan for life.). BVB and any other musician don’t deserve hate for no reason at all. I have one question for all of you haters. What did Andy, CC, Jinxx, Jake, and Ashley do to you? Its very fascinating to me that BVB does charity work and goes out of their way to make their fans or other people happy. It truly makes me happy knowing that. So all this name calling and such is just insane to me. I never when I was the “BVB hater” keeped all the hateful rude comments to myself. I have learned my lessons. That is never say something bad about something you haven’t given a chance to unless you already have given it a chance. Mark my words it will help you the reader in the long run. 😉

Fuck hating. I hate all the hate BVB gets. Period. They DON’T deserve none of it at all.

BVB means the world to me. I don’t know what my life would be without them now. Its amazing to know that people like them are out their. I love them with all of my heart. I love everyone in the BVB army as well.

To Andy, CC, Jake, Jinxx, and Ashley. I hope you five lovely men know that you all are doing the right things in life. Never stop doing what you all are doing. Keep doing a phenomenal job. I hope more of me does convert and apologize to BVB for their wrongdoings. I hope one day we all can live in a bully free environment. BVB has five lovely individuals that brings hope and faith to a broken world where a lot of people struggle with everyday life. I am so happy you five all are in this lovely band together. Keep kicking ass.

Black Veil Brides is not just a band….In reality its the Saviour that keeps us going throughout the day and night when we have Lost It All cause…In The End…They are Nobody’s Hero… We are our own Hero’s….For that…. We Scream..We Shout…Cause.,,,We Are The Fallen Angels…cause we ……Never Give In, Never Back Down

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Written by: Mariah Hanna

Copyright @PotatoBVBQueen 9/29/2013

What is it like living with debilitating headache disorders?

People tend to ask me everyday what is it like to live with pain. Pain. Its a simple four letter word which brings an apocalyptic destruction to this Earth with drug abuse which I am guilty of, deception, and tears families apart. Without getting too detailed with how society got so messed up in the first place. Those were my perceptions on why this world is going to hell in hay basket. LOL.

I did admit that I had a drug addiction. I was taking cocktails after special remedies of Ibuprofen, Acetaminophen, Tylenol, Headache Relief, and over the counter pain reliever. I took those meds for 3 plus years not knowing the harm it was causing me. I couldn’t help myself because I was in chronic pain all the time. So I HAD to self medicate myself. Which led to one of the major factors as why I have permanent headaches for the rest of my life. I would like to say I am 8 months clean for the record. It hasn’t been easy. But I have been surprising myself day by day.  

I would like to describe in detail what disorders I have. I have three headache conditions. I have two stomach and GI disorders. I have one female disorder. Among other minor disorders.

I have had Attention Deficit Disorder all my life. I have had to take medications with it. There was one medication that fucked up my sleeping schedule till this day. Its called Concerta. Its a 24/7 365 stimulant. That keeps the brain active. So when the fucking kid needs to sleep their minds are still awake at night because of the fucking drug was a 24 hour fucking stimulant. Kids aren’t programed to have this such medication in their systems. I rebelled against taking my ADD medication due to the reason I wanted my precious sleep at night and I wasn’t getting any. Parents need to realize that their are natural remedies out there for their children. I chose to drink a little coffee to get the natural alert feeling and I did my school work fine. Parents YOU don’t have to give you kids a SHIT LOAD of coffee to the point they become tweakers. 8 oz cup of coffee should last a kid throughout the day but please be sure to give them brain foods such as oatmeal and breakfast in the morning. THAT is my take on ADD and the fuck ups in the world of that one.

I have Gastroesophageal Reflux disease and Irritable Bowel Syndrome. These syndromes fuck up everything I eat and drink. I of course eat healthy and eat whole foods. Fruits and vegetables especially the POTATO are my favorites. I love eating healthy. I DON’T believe in diets. I go by what my body wants me to do. I stay away from spicy foods. If I do eat spicy foods I usually drink water. Water is the key to life here. Love water. Water loves you. Eat healthy proteins and all that good stuff. Find healthy recipes on google to make. 🙂 I also take meds for these disorders if I haven’t taken the Prevacid I would be fucked. The prevacid helps balance my acid in my stomach. I have too much acid in my stomach that is being produced.

My female problem disorder I have is Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. This basically gives me sideburns like a man and I produce a little too much man testosterone in my hormones. I also have very extreme periods. Its like a huge murder scene but someone killed a cat on the way its that bad. Its so bad sometimes I lay on the couch in a fetal position. I take medication for this its called metformin. Enough of that awkward shit.

Now on to the biggies. Why I woke up to be a normal teenager one day in November of 2009 and the next day in November of 2009 to the worlds most excruciating headache words can’t even describe. I baffled doctors so bad that one ER doctor wrote in my doctor notes “I am just their to get pain meds, that I drug addict, It was all in my head, and I was hypochondriac.” I have battle with neurologists that I have them tell me “ I have nothing more to do for you. You need to choose  a new doctor.” The physical, mental, and emotional pain I go through with these severe headaches is very astounding.

What are these three disorders I have. Well for starters I have Chronic Migraine Daily Syndrome, Spontaneous Intracranial Hypotension(My rare disorder), and Fibromyalgia of the brain and throughout my body.

What CMDS means if you have 15 or more chronic headache days a month you have that syndrome. What SIH means is I had leak somewhere in my spinal column or in my nasal intracranial passage that slowly dripped out spinal fluid. When I lay down the pain is dormant at a horizontal state but when I stand in a vertical state the increased pressure goes into my brain cause an excruciating headache. I also have tiny veins throughout my body which provided a viable clue to the rare syndrome. THIS can be life threatening if I don’t take precautions and take care of health properly and get MRI’s, Cat Scans, etc once in awhile to keep everything in check. Yes one can get Fibromyalgia in their brain. Which means all my nerves in my brain are over stimulated and need to be balanced out with medications and severe pain blockers.  

 

What is it like living with these debilitating headache disorders? one word. HELL. Hell is the best way to describe this pain I live in. I ask for help from the right outlets only to get turned down, get called a drug addict(In their standards meth, cocaine, etc. which I NEVER touched in my life), and get called a mental insane person.

A day in the life of my headaches. I wake up and take my morning medication. I try to do as much housework as I can. I get so dizzy and sick when I do such activities such as mopping, doing the dishes, etc. It’s disheartening when an average person can get household chores done in 1-2 hours it takes me all day cause if I over do something. I will blackout or faint.

I can’t go out and enjoy a social life because of them. I had to put college on hold because of them. I can’t get a full time job cause I am considered disabled. I have to have odd ball cleaning jobs for income. Its just irritating as hell. Hell is a good way to put it all. LOL.  

I take a whole glob of meds for these. I won’t even begin to list them. Its just frustrating to live with pain day in and day out. I have want to commit suicide three times because of the pain. But I know I have a purpose on this planet and I need to see where this road to my legacy leads me. Cause I will never give in, and never back down. Its very eye opening that my rare disorder only happens in 1 in 50,000 births and their is only 60 something case reported including mine in the whole world. I can tell you this. Its very eye opening.

I don’t take my life grant anymore. I enjoy all the small things. I appreciate everyone that has come into my life. I am forever grateful and thankful for everything. It means a lot.

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Mariahs ending praises: Don’t let the world come crashing on to you. YOU have the keys to control your life. YOU are worth it in the end. YOU are amazing. No matter what you go through in life always smile, keep a level head, stay positive, stay strong, and always remember someone else out their has it way worse than you. I only wish YOU the reader reading this the best in life to whatever it is you want to do in life. Take your dreams and achieve them. Make them happen. Actions speak louder than words. YOU are in control.  

NEVER GIVE IN, NEVER BACK DOWN-Black Veil Brides

Always know if you need to speak to me my twitter handle is @PotatoBVBQueen if you just need to talk.

 

All rights and credits of the quote “Never give in, Never back down.” all go to Black Veil Brides in their inspirational song on We Stitch These Wounds “Never Give In” written by: Andy Biersack, Jake Pitts, Ashley Purdy, Jeremy Ferguson, and Sandra Alvarenga.

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