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Never Give In and Never Back Down, Rising my blog from the hiatus grave,etc Explained.

“Never give in,Never back down” is my new permanent moto to life. 2016 has been one of the toughest years of my life in terms of death, my own health, and family woes. Plus my anxiety, depression, and train of thought for professional journalling is not good for the sake of who I want and what I want this blog to atone to become. 

I am not going to lie and say I had plans early on in 2016 to have this blog bumping and partying but my mental health was waging a war inside me. I planned to only make this a review blog. Review CD’s. Which in turn I will. I decided to scratch reviewing Asking Alexandria’s “The Black” on terms of the sudden recent events of Danny rejoining Asking for good. The only review I am going to work on is Andy Black’s “The Shadow Side”. I may be late to the party in terms of reviews but the turtle always nabs the big one. I have found out being disabled has its large perks to life. Taking things slow is one.

Another reason why I wasn’t so big into blogging, writing, etc is because some of these media publication companies feel entitled to something superior(not the ones I follow). Its not like that. Its about the beauty of why you do it in the first place. The reward is awesome of getting noticed by media outlets and bands. But don’t let it tarnish your craft and who you are. I have seen people change cause of it. I couldn’t give two shits if on twitter or anywhere on a social media I got noticed or anything(but I don’t take it for grant at all). Treat people like humans. Such as the bands you tweet or there members. Plus on any other form of social media.

I also stopped blogging cause I entered a huge depression. I haven’t opened up till now. These past two years I haven’t been able to release any anger or frustration at all at any concert cause I have been house bound due to my health. I have had multiple surgeries since my last concert which was 11/8/14. Was when I saw Black Veil Brides. I have to get another big operation soon involving my right knee. They are going to do the same thing with the left knee I had operated on last April. With everything going on medically with me. My migraines and other problems have been hell. I put on a fake facade for everyone to think I am okay but I am hurting and trying to shut out the world on my feelings. Some days I just didn’t want to get out of bed.I don’t even get out of my own house for a weeks time. But I have been getting out more due to self help. Cause I have gone to therapy in the past but it has failed me. So I just deal with it. 

It all got progressively worse when I found out over the internet which is the newest version of telling people my grandpa passed away. I come from a old school background. You either call or write a letter to let distant family or friends know about that. Not over the internet. Then I loose my other grandpa to terminal cancer in November. Plus some major drama came out of that. Plus I almost lost both of my parents in a head on collision in August due to a hangover driver and his negligence. My dad lost his job in October cause the company he was working for the mill permanently shutdown due to things I can’t say.

The year has totally been a drag. The only good that came out of it was the love that my family at home gave and my second families I am in. I couldn’t appreciate the love, support, prayers, etc in my time in need. You all truly mean a lot. It doesn’t go unappreciated. Am truly grateful and thankful. 

I often think I don’t deserve help. That I feel like I am looser. Even though I can be the toughest and biggest inspiration to people. I often wondering if people can REALLY help me. But I am still here. I am preserving and kicking ass despite my limited life skill/therapy tools I have. 

Its hard to tell people things I have gone through until recently. I have only just realized that telling my story can only help others. I don’t have an ego, superior complex, entitlement, etc. 

I am just, ME. I am human. You’re human. Everyone is human. We got thoughts, feelings, dreams, aspirations, etc. I am proud of myself for making it thus far. 

So I stepped away, more than a years time to fix my mental state of mind that I am still working on. My physical health, which is a massive load of chores to do. Among other things I had to deal with outside of the blog. I did this for myself and for my loyal readers that I don’t take for grant. I wanted to come back with full on train of focus of why I put this blog out there to begin with. 11/16/16 I felt like I started that journey but didn’t have the right words till now to explain why. 

I got my first tattoo and probably my last tattoo for a long time on left shoulder. Its comprised of my dream tattoo/personal BVB tattoo. But its my life lesson, reminder to be strong, reminder to never hate/ to love, reminder to never to take life for grant,etc.

The break down of the reasoning of the support ribbon. I suffer 15 medical conditions one of them rare. 

Purple and Pink: Chronic Migraine, Fibromyalgia to the Brain, and my rare condition, Spontaneous Intracranial Hypotension( I leak spinal fluid out my left nostril from a CSF leak due to migraines)

Purple: Athromyalgia and Fibromyalgia

White: Irritable Bowel Syndrome with Diarrhea and Constipation

Yellow: Endometerosis correlation with Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome

Purple/Yellow: I am a suicide and sexual assault survivor. I attempted five times with each time failed. One coorealating with my sexual assault. I am proud to be living still amount the bad shit that has happened to me. My last attempt was dealt with my health conditions and a cancer scare, I didn’t want to be in chronic pain anymore. BVB helped me in my darkest hour. I would have OD on prescription sleeping aids. But I forced myself to throw up. 1/27/13 and beyond is a day I will never forget. I saved my own life but BVB this piece of 🍰 you do own in helping me through something shitty. Plus I was sexually molested by a ex trusted guy on college viewing trip. Help saw what was happening. Never said anything. Help never came. I was molested for an hour and some odd minutes. In front of peers. I will NEVER forget.

Unmentioned diseases and conditions: Gastropresis, Cealic disease, gluten intolerance, gastro-esophogeal reflux disease, depression, anxiety, Attention Deficit Disorder, and hand tremors due to my hands being burned to the bone when I was a 13 months old fucking up my whole motor system for life due to a neglectful daycare provider. 

The BVB Mourning Star Rosary: Why is it tattooed on me?  Well for starters I love old fashioned jewlery and I being a old fashioned soul chose the mourning star drawn by Richard Villa at Exhibit A Art Gallery. I am in love with his artwork. The quality of his prints, art, etc he does for BVB is totally insane. So I am incredibly honored to hone one of his first pieces of artwork he did for Black Veil Brides on my skin. I am also a non devout Catholic. I was baptized as a baby into catholism but I never really got into the religion but respected the art, theatrics, etc of the religion and how nunery( A BVB 😂) was processisioned. That’s another reason why I got tattooed on me due to my own personal religious reasons and my respect for the beauty of the religion. I am purely secular to anyone’s beliefs and feelings. Even when it comes to sexual orientation, etc. 

“Never give in, Never back down”: the deep meaning as to why I got this tattooed on me. The full meaning or lyrics ” Never give in, Never back down ( When your life feels lost/Fight against all odds)” is very personal to me. Between fighting the deep depression, anxiety, anger of several things in real life, my health taking a dip, my two grandpas dying this year, etc I had this song as my backbone to hold me up when I am down in the pits of hell. I am struggling to keep my head above the chin level. But I am here. I am here to say you can get through your darkest shit no matter what. Giving in is a easy thing to do but also “Getting up and kicking ass” is another. I rather kick some ass positively. I am disabled, I wake up in pain and go to sleep in pain. This song changed my life forever along with “In The End”, “Devils Choir”,and “Heart of Fire”. BVB has several inspirational and moving songs. But those five are the big ones that changed my life forever. I am indebted to Andy, CC, Jinxx, Jake, and Ashley with there hours and hours of hard work they put in for the BVB army to hear new music,etc. No matter what our lives amount to. Its what you make it. Make it a kickass one. I hope your “Legacy” is bright and potato-ey. Remember “Never give in, Never back down”

Tattoo by Shannon Blinn of Skin Deep tattoo design of Lewiston, Idaho.

Things I am most looking forward to is BVB5 and there tour. Hopefully I am not to much of a cripple when they come to my region. I am in need of a concert fix. I wish to see Andy Black in Spokane in March but the damn doctor keeps fiddle farting around with my surgery date. So sadly I can’t attend due to that reasoning. I am stoked to see American Satan(film Andys going to be in if you are living under a rock all this time)though next year. So many exciting things to look forward to.

All in all, I have had a pretty tough and shitty year but its made me sit and reevaluate a lot of things. I hope to bring back this blog back in 2017. I am sorry you all had to sit in silence and read past articles. I am going to go back and re-edit those. Right now I am just going to get this blog sources up and ready for 2017. I am in the right frame of mind to write again. I am proud of myself to bring myself out of the ashes and rise up out of the ashes again. Hope your holiday season goes swell. Tell your loved ones you love them. Be safe out there. Don’t drive hungover or drunk. Call a Uber or a taxi. Do chores for your parents. Thank you for reading my update on what’s going on. It means a lot. You as the reader means the world to me. So take care. Best of wishes. Je T’Aime.

©Mariah L. Hanna @PotatoBVBQueen 12/19/2016 *See About page please and thank you.❤

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The Black Mass Tour 2014: Goodbye Agony, Moving On, Apologies, and having a rocking time

The Black Mass Tour 2014: Goodbye Agony, Moving On, Apologies, and having a rocking time

me mom meet and greet BVB

How can I start this. I started this review a million times in my head but it never came out right until now. I went to see Black Veil Brides, Falling In Reverse, Set It Off, and Drama Club at the Knitting Factory(learned from a security guard it was built-in 2004 and opened in the same year) on November 8th, 2014. A day that I will never forget nor forget to remember as every ounce of that day is soaked into my brain forever. I truly grateful and thankful for it. Every ounce of it. To be alive and breathing is something I will never take for grant.

This review taking a little longer to do cause five days after my concert. I had to get major surgery to remove a hernia and appendix(Doctor told me basically my appendix was an organ bomb ready to explode inside my intestinal cavity it was that extremely inflamed from my severe stomach issues I have) that was causing me to be in extreme stomach pain. They were going to take my gallbladder out too but there was no gallstones prevalent so I must have another surgery to test to see if something is wrong with my gallbladder if there is there taking that out too next year. I live on a never ending battle roller coaster ride with my medical issues. Going to the concert was my get away from my problems and bullshit I deal with. I met A LOT of kids at the concert with medical conditions of there own. Ranging from scolisos to fibromyalgia. I gave them so many hugs and told them that their in my thoughts and prayers. Meanwhile all this medical bullshit is happening within the BVB army our own leader, Andy Biersack, stated in the new Revolver Magazine said he suffered a blood infection that rendered him to have constant pain and suffer from inflammation. Even though his dad, Chris Biersack, stated in a few tweets recently he is okay now. Andy if you do read this always know YOU aren’t alone now like you were in the past. We are all here for you dude. Health, batman, or whatever the hell you want wise. You do so much for us. Sometimes its best for the community to show its part in supporting you unconditional. In fact I say this about ALL the members of BVB really. I want them all to be healthy. Being sick is never fun. I live the life all to well and its never fun to be chronically ill.

So lets start this review. How can I really. I have been rendered speechless but now I have found the words to review it. My meet and greet went magically how I wanted it to go even though I was an awkward potato at that. All I wanted for them to hear was an “I am sorry” from a former BVB hater. But instead they got it formally. I said ” I want to apologize for being a former hater of your band” CC, Jake, and Jinxx’s faces were flabbergasted by my apology. I am very pleased to have done what I did. I made sure both ends of the table got an apology. I apologized formally to Andy and Ashley Purdy. Andy took this in glory and welcomed me “Officially” to their weird side of things. I was stunned of what Andy Biersack had to say to me. I could tell he comprehend who he was talking to at the moment. He then told me something that brought something rare out of me. He took me WAY off guard. He told me that he reads what you the reader are reading right now. I was stunned, shocked, and couldn’t come to words at them moment to thank him. Andy pulled a “Mariah Pysduck” out of me. They are rare. After he said he reads my things on this blog. I am very very appreciative and grateful of that. I then told him without even thinking that BVB should brand BVB haters in the head with “Research” on their heads. No Andy I didn’t mean cattle prodding BVB haters with that. I meant putting stickers and shit like that annoying V8 juice commercial. So Andy you are one of the very few that pulled a “Mariah Psyduck” out of me. I can say the most off the wall shit when I am very stunned as potato hearing cool shit things. All of the meet and greet experience was awesome besides my mom telling Andy he was born in Idaho. I corrected her though. My mom is new to BVB. No matter how much I try teaching her BVB facts she won’t remember them. She also told him that I share a birthday with him. I was going to tell Andy I named my cat after him but then he told me “Happy Almost Birthday” I became overwhelmed and I told I called it “Merry Birthmas which was meant as greeting to him too. I was still in shock that I apologized twice to a band that receives so much hate still for just being a band that are themselves and are the true people who they are in the public eye. So Andy that “Merry Birthmas” was for you. I hope you have wonderful “Merry Birthmas” I understand what you go through birthday wise. Haha. Pros and cons of it. All the rest of you in the band Jake, Jinxx, CC, and Ashley. I tried my best to give you all equally amount of time with me. You all have some sort of inspiration to me personally equally. I love you all. Converting to be BVB fan is the best gift I could ever give myself cause really if I never became a fan. I wouldn’t be here really. But I am proud to say this. I, Mariah, am no longer associating myself as former BVB hater or anything towards it. I, Mariah, am a huge dedicated fan of Black Veil Brides and that is the end of that. The last bits of darkness were given to BVB in a two-part fan letter addressed to all the guys. Their was a piece of paper I wanted them to destroy. It’s all the thoughts I had left and vanished with pure love for the band after I got done writing it. It wasn’t made for me it was made for them to destroy. The fate of it I don’t know what happened to it. I don’t want to know cause its theirs to keep and destroy as a band insignificance of putting a huge dent into the “BVB hater” side. Which by the way doesn’t have potatoes, porta potties, etc. BVB army side has it better and cooler. Trust me the BVB hater life is the sad life. 😉 So all in all. BVB “In the end*” got me as forever fan as they rightfully deserve. I am very proud of myself making that decision on January 27th, 2013. It was the best gift I ever received and the best thing to ever happen to me in the world.

I also want to make a side note that they went nuts over my thank you notes/letter combined into one. It was so cute and fun to see all the dudes faces in BVB light up when they saw themselves in potato form. I will never be over that and the fun I had making them was priceless. So truly it put me over the moon with this whole VIP meet and greet experience.

Now let’s get to this concert review shall we. I woke up very early Saturday. That alone is a chore for me to do cause I am disabled and I have severe sleeping disorder that makes me sleep till odd hours of the day. I just deal with my health issues madness. But my cat Loki Andy the one I named after Andy Biersack cause around the time I converted I was given this little tiny baby rescue tabby kitten who lost all its fur and was full of fleas around my fifth month after being new to BVB and the BVB army. He lived in barn and bathroom the first part of his life. My cat Loki LOVES the bathroom. That is his bedroom so I make sure he gets spoiled and has his room cleaned a lot. He is my little rock star cat of trouble. He is my little “Toilet Buddy”(referred to BVB 2011 interview done by Kerrang Magazine). My other cat Snickers despises the bathroom. lol. My cats are my alarm clocks cause I hate regular alarm clocks. Cats are cuter and you can’t stay mad for long at their annoying nature verses an alarm clock that just needs a shotgun to it. My mom and I get ready and out the door quick. We go to my moms friends and her daughter’s house to pick them up to carpool up to Spokane,WA to the Knitting Factory. During the three plus hours on the way up. My mind was going nuts cause I was the first person to apologize to BVB. I had all these mix feelings of excitement, love, passion, and happiness as well as being nervous knocking on the door. I just kept telling myself their human like me.

I hurried the hell up and ate something(lawn LOL, salad) plus hydrated the hell out of myself cause I am disabled and my body tires easily. I need to conserve precious amounts of energy to rock the hell out with BVB later on in the day. Get their and as I mentioned above I got to go in early cause I was apart of the meet and greet. I said “Hi” to all the people outside who were waiting to see BVB and FIR. I got a lot back in return. The BVB army is consisted of nice smelling again I am noting that again. THANK YOU FOR PUTTING DEODORANT ON BVB ARMY AND NICE SMELLING THINGS. I can’t thank you enough for that. It’s pleasant to smell a sweaty nice smelling person verses a sweaty BO person. I don’t judge someone though about this but hygiene is a must and BVB fans sure know it all too well.

The meet and greet gets over. I wait in line inside the building waiting line also known as Que. I am relieved to not see the see through shirt double DD see all the titties lady outside in the line. I was going to go to Wal-Mart to buy her a special bra to wear but glad I didn’t have to. There are a lot of kids at shows. Kids don’t need to see that shit. Again concert attire should be nice looking and presentable. Not be like your going to the stripper joint. But on the flip side I seen a lot awesome dressed people who dressed awesome. I don’t give a shit what one wears but there is boundary line though. Don’t dress like a stripper to a concert were there are kids in attendance. No no square. Potato brownie points to the four banana ladies who took that one Andy Biersack quote to heart and went to the show as bananas. So shout out to them. If you want to dress like a banana or giraffe and go into public I am very proud of you and cheer you on. I did see an epic Eve Black cos-player in attendance. She spent lots of time preparing her attire I could tell just for the concert she also attended the meet and greet too. Their were a lot face painted kids hailing the person that influenced them the most in the band with stitches and everything. I was going to put face paint on but I have severe hand tremors that would make me look like I dipped my whole face in black paint. So I went as a plain Jane BVB army member. I am very very pleased with how much effort people put into their attire for the BVB concert. It’s a huge event to them. BVB’s concerts means everything to us. I started already planning my next meet and greet and BVB concert next time. I plan on doing it all over again. The whole experience was just amazing.

Now I get to talk about the concert part:

Drama Club: My thoughts on these crazy cats. They are very positive force for a younger demographic and beyond. They hit really well with people who like techno, dub-step, and fast beat music. Very high energy. The songs they played were fantastic. It reminded me if anonymous had love children with Rage Against The Machine and Skrillex and Drama Club is born minus Rages political cannery. I loved their Andy Black spin-off. That was cool as potatoes to see and hear. I seen on their masks they had the “NO H8” sign glad to know they are against homophobia and all for the LBGT community. Spread the love and not the hate. This music isn’t my cup of tea but I am highly pleased with them. I can’t listen to this kind of music too much with my medical conditions so it was a hairy situation when I they started playing. I respect the hell out these guys cause they called an asshole out in the crowd. I was their just enjoying and respect them as one should(I have learned from all of my hate.) No hate from me. Their great cool cats. I would recommend their music to anyone that loves this type of music. It’s just that I can’t listen unfortunately “Fuck You, Motherfucker to my medical conditions right” So Drama Club keep working your asses off to make YOUR dreams come true(Your reading mine) and peace out from Potatoland.

Set It Off: I quite enjoyed these guys. Their bassist gave me a hug when I told him I was broke and couldn’t buy his CD. I promise you Austin. If you are reading this I will buy “Duality” and review it sometime down the road. Hold on with me as I do my best that I can. I love Set It Off’s energy. Cody’s Carson’s speech to the crowd about Anxiety was beautiful and well needed to our youth of today and everyone in between that deal with that. He is very inspirational up and coming front man to inspire a whole new legion of people to become fans of his band. His band though were crazy cool cats. Cody stage dived a few times. Making the whole floor go wild. So I am not worried at all for this band not to fall through the cracks cause they got their shit straight and I am proud to be fan just very newly. I love going to shows and discovering music that way. Its more kick ass and cooler. So Set It Off keep working your ass off and someday you can become a headliner band. Excited to see your journey to flower. All my best to Set It Offs future.

Falling In Reverse: I was hesitant for this band 100%. I had mixed feelings about their music and what Ronnie Radke is as a musician. But at the end of the day he earned my respect for stopping the show to see if a little dude was okay from getting hit crowd surfing. He asked him if he needed back surgery and if he was alright. After that I knew all that bullshit from the past just needs to be in the past. People make mistakes(are only human). People deserve “Second, Third, Fourth, etc chances”. Ronnie deserves that just like anyone else. He got the crowd going for sure to the point were the security guards had to give the kids out on the floor water to prevent dehydration and people from collapsing from heat exhaustion and heat stroke. Those security guards deserve props throughout FIR’s set cause Ronnie made sure the whole house was on fire before BVB. All the musicians and everyone who works for Ronnie all deserve my props for caring about the audience that night. Thais all I cared about and he earned it. So Ronnie you are breaking through the shit. If you can earn respect from me then you can slowly rebuild your reputation back again. Shit happens in shitty ways and good ways. I am proud as hell you’re getting your life turned 360’d. All I can do is send my best of wishes to FIR’s future and whatever the hell you do. You put on a hell of a show. I respect FIR. It might not be my cup tea cause some music takes awhile for me to fall in love with and some its love at first listen. All FIR can do is try to I can say that about any band really. If you try to failing gets you to success then you know you are winning the battle. Kudos from Potatoland.

Black Veil Brides: The band of the night arrives. Excuse my french even though I have been using no-no language throughout my review but I am my own writer and I do what I want to write. HOLY FUCKING SHIT POTATO AMAZEBALLS. I have had enough days this year that felt like Christmas and this was one of them Ho! Ho! Ho! “Merry Blackmass everyone” The five dark Saint Kris Kringle’s came out and gave everyone a rock n roll time. This show was special to cause THERE WAS NO BVB HATER SPEECHES AT ALL. I felt validated and honored to do a such thing. This how a BVB show should run for them for the rest of the run as band. The time for hating bands is becoming so dull and very annoying. Of course hate the band as you please if it makes you feel good to be miserable. But I believe its time to just move on from hating bands. If people sat down and did the math of how much it costs to run a band and what it takes to be in band people would be respectful. Ignorance should NEVER be celebrated. So it pleased the hell out of me that BVB was having the time of their lives doing the greatest thing they loved to do and that is to perform for thousands and thousands of people every night and sing along with the Army they created from the beginning. To experience this is truly something I will never take for grant. I am very happy to see that these guys are happy on stage. I should say stupidly happy. Which makes me even more elated cause its like seeing kids on Christmas, Halloween, or any cool ass holiday or a store that makes that person go nuts to see the person that happy. To know they have re-built their band relationship from their struggles from making W&D. To see them party the fuck up on stage and blow it up. The fact that they received something huge from me that day an apology from a former “BVB Hater” all I can say is “Goodbye Agony” and saying hello to a new chapter and new beginnings of what is in store. I am at a loss for words when It comes to their concert cause literally they fucked shit up and made sure everyone had rock n roll time. Andy also mentioned to the crowd that he appreciated the fact that people spent their hard-earned money on rock and roll show twice. Andy is one of the most sweetest people I have ever met along with his band brothers. I am living testament that all the shit against them is FALSIFIED BULLSHIT. I researched and went to the source. None of the shit that is against BVB is true. I will go to my grave and defend the fact that BVB are five wonderful dudes and care about their fans. So proud of them as band and as individuals. So really if your on the fence about these guys go to the source. Don’t be a coward and become another worthless keyboard warrior troll. My hard-working money went to a magnificent rock show to five incredible, kind-hearted, and hard-working dudes plus a huge crew who works day in a day out to put the show on for you all. So all in all, the show was BVBBOMBTASTIC and it was a killer night for rock n roll as a whole it was alive and well in that venue. I cherished every moment of it. So thank you BVB for doing what you do even though you return the exact opposite to us. Haha!. You inspire a legion of people to follow their dreams and conquer them. Mine is only beginning and I have firm believing that if I work hard enough I can feel like a rock star too. I wish you all nothing but the best. All my love and admiration from Potatoland(Idaho). Jake Pitt’s birth state. I call Jake a “Famous Potato” for a reason.

In conclusion, hating on bands is so my space. Bands either crash and burn or get wild success from a rabid fan base. But Its getting tiring to read the same ole shit everyday. Its become amusing and quite sick( I believe some extreme band haters have mental health issues its sad really). All my money. planning, etc paid off big time. I am pleased with how the Blackmass tour went. I am even more enamored how the bands made sure they didn’t hurt their fans at all. Even though it was a packed house it was a house filled with love, common place, love, bananas, Eve Black cos-player, a lot of BVB face painted kids, a lot of hardcore kids, kids with medical issues that came to prove they could go to the ends of the earth to see their favorite band, and most of all we all were their for reason, to enjoy ourselves and have fun. Cause what is life-like without the party. Life already gives us shit and things we have to deal with on a daily basis whether with be life, medical, etc. All these bands have a mission to help kids find their dreams and make them come true.

Whether your favorite band was FIR, SIO, Drama Club, or BVB. The respect levels in the room and people’s manners were very polite. I never been to a concert except to BVB’s where common manners are highly used. Doors were being held by gentlemen and some gentlemen went and got drinks for their ladies and their friends. Seen a ole grandma that was disabled rocking the hell out to BVB. As I left the concert to leave to my motel that my carpool for the night was staying at when my mom and I was walking to their car their was drunk imbecile in a sketchy bar singing karaoke to KISS’s “Rock and Roll All Night and Party Everyday” I am like well I just got a blast of BVB and touch of real life Average Joe here. Poor dude wasn’t impressing the ladies in the bar. Oh lord. What a night that was and I will never forget it for the rest of my life. I am at peace and very proud of what I did. I am excited to see BVB again sometime down the road. These guys deserve a lot of good karma in their lives. I hope that everyone in the BVB army is able to see the power that is BVB on stage cause their a presence to be reckoned with. One that is groundbreaking and hits the take over the world stratosphere. These guys are only starting. I am glad I am a long for the ride cause I believe that BVB’s future is bright of many cool things.

Thank you for reading this concert review. It means a lot that you took time out of your day to read my words. It greatly appreciated. This took awhile for me to put out cause A) I am speechless. B) I couldn’t find the words C) Recovering from appendix and hernia surgery sucks. So thank you for holding in their with me. I love you all. Your all my lovely potato gems and I appreciate the hell out of you that support me and my writing. I support YOU in whatever you do and need plus your dreams whatever they may be. All my wishes and love to you all. “Never give in, Never back down.”-BVB Always remember YOU are not alone. Keep kicking ass and eat your potatoes cause they help aid to kill heart disease in its place plus they clean your colon out too while providing nutrients and minerals. Whatever your dreams are. GO FORTH AND CONQUER.

-Mariah L. Hanna Copyright @PotatoBVBQueen 11/21/2014 *See About page for *inquire

*”In The End” is the song that converted me from being a hater of BVB’s to a huge dedicated fan of BVB’s on January 27th, 2013. The song gave me the tools to live with myself and accept myself for who I am. Its one song that is dear to my heart cause its the song that stopped me in my last and final attempt of committing suicide. BVB gave me the tools to help save my own self destruction. For all that I owed them debt. I apologized to them as the debt. I still feel like I need to pay them more but they got me as a forever fan in the end.

LONG LIVE BLACK VEIL BRIDES AND NEVER GIVE IN, NEVER BACK DOWN.

I will never give in, never back down. I have been through hell and back medically and my spirits have never been broken even though I have “Lost it all” at times. But know we are only human. If you are going through hell know we can fight this together. No one has to be alone. Again follow your dreams and “SET THE WORLD ON FIRE”

 

 

Second Chances: A Black Veil Brides and BVB Army dedication!

I was inspired by this article by Mandy on twitter. She has helped me among others counsel me to the point where they helped get rid of the BVB hater I once was. This month will be my one year anniversary of being in the BVB army what better way to celebrate it than in a positive light and in teaching or advice manner. Mandy, Amy, and Cindy helped me and give me that well need slap or cold water in my on my face to wake my up. They talked me out of the guilt and shame of being a past BVB hater. The passed is no more and I am ready to live the future and present. Without them I have no clue what I would do. I will express my opinions, advice, and inspiration to people who are afraid to take that step into giving things a second chance even if you absolutely hated it before. I will talk about my experience and counter-act it so that you the reader can use it as your own advantage point to try new music, food, etc.

On January 27th of last year was forever a changing day in my life. I planned on ending my life that day but I ended up killing the BVB hater that was inside of me. I had written my suicide note in full on a document on my computer and obituary. I was going to end my life cause I was tired of being in pain all the time twenty-four seven three hundred sixty-five days out of the year due to my permanent headache conditions that make life a living hell. It wasn’t till a cancer scare sent me over the edge to further go with my plans of doing the disheartening deed. It wasn’t until my plans go intercepted by a band that I did not particularly like at the time I was at my wit’s end. All lost hope was gone. I clicked on they’re video cause I was in a shitty rock bottom mood. But what happened was beautiful. I am still lost for words on it. Andy spoke to me the fucking BVB hater who was going through shit that his fan base has some struggles with. Him and his band mates reached their hand out to me. Told me it was okay. Sometimes we all fall down. To never give in, never back down all in the music video “In The End”. Every inch of my heart that falsely hated BVB was filled with love, admiration, inspiration, respect, and support. They rose me from the ashes and helped guide me on that path that I should have been on cause I was a lost soul for years. I am proud to be a BVB army family member. I have been utterly blessed with love each day by the lovely members of BVB army and who they are as people. I love them all so very much. With all my heart.

YOU the reader can rise from the ashes and have your New Years Day too. Again try new things. Unlike I did I tried a band out for a “Second” time in a disheartening circumstances. BVB where their when I needed someone the most. They understood me and understood what I was going through.  They still even help me out. I can’t believe the wonder and power behind their music. They are one of a kind band. One that can’t be re-created. They have that spark, powerhouse, and magic about them that makes them such an epic fucking band live and I can’t even explain it on CD.

Many people have asked me, told me, or yelled at me. Why do you like this band? Black Veil Brides is a faggot ass band why do you like them so much? You should kill yourself if you like Black Veil Brides so much? How on earth can you stand those freaks? Are you retard? Etc?

What I will aptly reply to all of that. Do your research about the band. Listen to their music. Get educated. Even before you come to me ask me those questions. It’s quite stupid day in and day out to read, hear, or behind someones back receive hate that is just stupid to begin with. So do the world a favor and get educated.

My thoughts on “Second Chances” everyone deserves them. Even the dreaded Black Veil Brides haters. Why? The BVB haters cause some of them are just guided into wrong crowds or social interactions in life. Plus some of the biased media plays a huge role in falsely making BVB haters. Some of the media asshats wants you to believe that BVB are monsters, their out to get you, they are terrible people, and they make shitty music. That they do so and so. When in doubt they do the exact opposite. People, bands, things, etc ALL deserve a “Second” chance whether you like it or not at the time. I absolutely hated BVB falsely not knowing the reasons I hated them were all plagued by the media and people I was hanging out with via the internet. I got rid of those people by extensive research, deleted people out of my life on my social medias, and then started my new life with the BVB army.

It’s quite simple go on the internet preferably on Spotify or YouTube. Type in keyword: Black Veil Brides, Potatoes, or what the fuck it is your afraid or need to put F.E.A.R in its asshole.  My whole world changed when the magic and love of Black Veil Brides music was let in my heart. It was a very beautiful day to be certain. I didn’t go see the clouds that day. The BVB hater that I was did. People who give “Second Chances” to things are amazing people.

It’s just like people who give a dog or kitty cat a “Second Chance” rescue them from the shelter and adopted them. It’s very heartwarming that the person or person’s took that animal into their home to give it love, shelter, and food. So why can’t this happen to people too. Give pets and people “Second Chances”. You may never know YOU might get a grumpy cat person to adopt or the next Lil Bub.

What has my “Second Chance” by allowing Black Veil Brides music into my heart. Its given me friends from all over the world I can count on. Its given me my life back. Its helped me find my person. Its helped me find who I am in the world. Its helped me guide myself to finding my future career which you are reading the words now of it. Its has completed me. Its helped me in ways I can’t explain. I am forever grateful, thankful, and every most overjoyed Black Veil Brides and the BVB army came into my life. YOU all deserve some sort of potato plaque with loads of potato made products.

A “Second Chance” doesn’t mean the end of the world is coming. It means that you are open-minded and stepping out of the box of what is normal. People often think its okay to just live with monotonous lives. People can live that way. I have no problems with it all. To each their own and to their own opinions. Which by the way you are entitled to. I will respect it and you shall respect mine. But don’t have it so it crosses the line period. But people live such monotonous lives that they don’t even try. I am glad I have grown up with a sense of an open mind. So it’s not the end of the world to try something new. Even if it’s once in a while.

Even if you have to give it a third chance so be it. Do what you please. Sing the songs you love. Eat the food that pleases you. Do the activities that make you happy. Do what makes YOU happy. Cause at the end of the day, I am quoting Andy Biersack here, YOU are your own best fan and YOU don’t want to hurt that person. 😉 Treat YOU right. Get help for self harm, suicidal tendencies, etc. Cause its better to have done it verses than I am “Thinking about” it.

I truly hope the best for every one of my readers that comes along and reads my articles old and new. It means a lot to me. Each reader sincerely means the world to me. I can’t explain to all of you that. This is to some of the most lovely fans out their who believed in me when no one else did. Thank you. Here is to your “Second Chances” cause you all deserve them too from people. I wish you all the best wishes in the world along with Black Veil Brides and their families/friends.

I will wrap this article up telling you all what is coming up in with “The Potato Queen” in 2014.  I am hoping to go back to college this year to get a business degree and a minor in either English or creative writing. Preferably creative writing. I hope everything works out cause I had to take an infinite withdrawal from college back in 2011 for a while to get myself well cause I have 6 chronic illnesses and 5 of them are permanent. 2 are life threatening. I have been through so much medically and this a little glimmer of hope that I have for myself In hopes that I can make it in the world without feeling like a failure in society cause of being constantly sick as fuck 24/7 around the calendar. Nothing makes me proud and internally happy than writing. Knowing I have a huge potential in making it as a huge rock and roll journalist proves that “Second Chances” are infinite and real. It’s a true blessing and one that changed my life forever. To know I can get a degree that isn’t going to stress me the fuck out and put my health in to jeopardy is a blessing disguise. This all happened and in thank you’s of Black Veil Brides. I couldn’t thank them enough if I were to meet them face to face. They mean the world to me. I am happy and blessed that I became a loyal fan of theirs. I am overjoyed. Words can’t express my gratitude towards Black Veil Brides, what they stand for, and who they are because they are wonderful, epic , crazy, kind, gentle, beautiful, charismatic, cheerful, supportive, and loving human beings inside and out.

“The Potato Queen’s Articles, Reviews, and fun tiddly bits for 2014”

The Potato Queen’s top Albums for 2013

Reviewing Ronnie Radke’s mix-tape with various artists

Going to Review the hilarious Average Joe: Season 2

Review any band that wants me to review their music

Going to write a few medical pieces

Reviewing We Stitch These Wounds Re-Release whenever the announcement and release of it comes

Going to do small little inspiring articles while BVB is in studio producing CD number 4

January 27th is a little holiday with me. It’s the day I repented. Come celebrate with me on my twitter as I will think of something special to do for BVB that day in commemoration. It also marks a year that I haven’t had one single suicidal thought ever. It’s the small feats that counts. \m/

Throughout the year just keep checking my blog for updates, articles, rants, reviews, etc  to come your way. I am excited to start my journey as an amateur journalist. I send my love and wishes to everyone. Hope everyone has a Happy New Year. A kick ass one too.

Happy New Year and here is to “Second Chances” in 2014,

Written By: Mariah L. Hanna

Copyright @PotatoBVBQueen 1/8/14

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