Black Veil Brides has been a band for several years now. I only just this past January 27th, 2013 got into them hardcore due to an unhappy situation I was going through. I in January had to get tested for cancer for the first time. My white blood cells where showing signs of inflammation(which is a sign of cancer or red flag warning which thank god it was the red flag warning) somewhere in my body. Which I was put on several more test’s. But during the time I was getting the tests I had made a time to end my life cause I did not want to live anymore with anymore medical issues and any more medical pain. I already I had at the time 2 severe headache conditions which one was rare. I also had other medical issues as well. The headache conditions is what is causing me to be disabled. I was done being a medical guinea pig anymore. The doctors were treating me poorly. Some bullied my indirectly. So on January 27th I was going to end my life cause I was tired of being in pain and tired of all the medical bullshit I was being put through. The cancer scare is what pushed me off the edge. The fatal mistake I made that saved my life was going through Youtube music section. The music at the time I was listening to was not working. Then I saw the new BVB music video for “In The End” I at the time being a former hater tried to avoid it at all cost but this time fate wanted me to push on the link to the music video. The next paragraph will explain the magic.
I clicked the music video and I being the hater said “Why the fuck did I just push the BVB video.” then all of the sudden Andy spoke to me. I call it the instant Black Veil Brides hater removal two by four being smacked in between my eyes. Andy sang “In the end as we fade into the night, who will tell the story of your…..” I listen to the full song through by the end of the song. I was on ever fucking social media of Black Veil Brides and I was liking and following everyone them through twitter, facebook, tumblr, and youtube.. I was just baptized into a new human being. The strength I was given by the band to fight this hellish battle I am going through with my medical issues. Made me believe their is hope and faith in the world.
Just getting over the realization that the band that I just hated a few seconds before just fucking saved my life cause I planned on killing myself that night when everyone was asleep. What a fucking contradiction I kept saying. I have since put my hater ways behind me. Locked the hater tight shut in a coffin and buried her fictitiously six feet under. The hater I was once before has died and will never be resurrected. Death is permanent. So in the beauty of this. I took my last ever suicide attempt and turned into a deep and ever meaningful love for a band I once betrayed. The only thing I killed that night was the BVB hater I was. Which I am truly grateful and thankful to have done to me. Best thing ever to happen to me EVER really. Doesn’t top me winning fourth place at competition at individual state competition in Boise, Idaho. But its up their with me getting my high school diploma(Fuck you doctor haha 😉 ). Nothing really feels amazing than becoming a BVB army member its literally an life changing moment. My life is now better cause of it.
These guy’s get so much hate its not even funny. I ignore all the hate as much as possible but when the trolls are on every fucking social media site possible post after post with their hate towards BVB its gets pretty tiring. I also hate it when the get called faggots. It just boils my blood when the get purposefully called that every time something really great happens to them. Oh well. You all get the magical “Fuck You, Motherfucker.” I respect your opinions haters but don’t fucking cross the line with your’s. That’s why several BVB army member’s come flocking to you cause you cross the line. Post something intelligent instead of fucking insulting all the fucking time.
Through the months I have been a BVB fan. I have become great friends with numerous people of the BVB army. Everyone of the BVB army is very beautiful inside and out. I like to mention their dedication and love towards a five piece band that forever captivates the world. BVB isn’t just any ordinary band. BVB has all the right ingredients to make one great powerhouse anthemic band to to have mass in masses of a massception of the BVB army supporting them.
The love the band gives to their fans is just awesome and heartwarming. I have gone through probably 4-5 boxes of tissues of BVB fan stories already. I feel their emotions through their posts and it’s an everlasting feeling. What BVB does to their fans not only changes their lives forever it also better’s and brightens their lives for their eternity. With each and everyone of Black Veil Bride’s wisdom and advice to their fans is a lifetime of knowledge and inspiration for that one fan.
Now we come to the clincher of the article where you pull out 4-5 boxes tissues. Black Veil Brides has been really prevalent this month. I seen them live for the first time on October 3rd in Spokane, WA at the Knit. That day honestly changed my life forever. I have no words to fit how lovely BVB was live that day. Forever in debt. But anyways, I have seen so much hate recently towards BVB on my personal accounts that it has been bothersome. The more I ignore it. The more hate flocks to me. This week hasn’t been the best week at all for my medical issues at all. I haven’t felt good for 3-2 months. I haven’t been eating properly in weeks. At times I feel like giving up but who come to the rescue. Black Veil Brides. They were their every step of the way through all the bullshit I was going through. My medical issues are still kicking my ass. It sucks that not even a doctor can help me at this time. I have been braving the storm and I know I can fight this tough ass battle. All I have repeated over and over again in my head was BVB’s famous lyrics that have inspired the BVB nation. “Never give in, Never back down.” Its hard dealing with day to day daily life dredgers but to know that BVB is on my side in spirit helping me fight this really means a lot.
I have no words to say how thankful and honored I am to be in the BVB army. I wish I NEVER was a former hater all. But no one can erase their past. The past is the past its unchangeable. But the present and future are. So glad I made the drastic change in becoming one of you. You in the BVB army. YOU all mean the world to me. I could not thank you all enough for every tweet and gesture said to me. YOU are all amazing. I love you all.
Black Veil Brides me so much to me now. I am going to be a fan forever. I am so excited to be with you all in the BVB army and with BVB during their many adventures and the long BVB rock and roll party journey ahead of us. BVB has all the cards to be one of the greatest bands of our time.
So Thank you BVB for putting out inspirational, aspiring, thoughtful, helpful, healing, and every word that is positively said about BVB. BVB has helped saved thousands of lives including mine through the whole world.
If you’re planning on committing suicide. No that you are not alone. Know that a saviour is always their for you when you’re feeling alone and to Never give in, never back down. The suicide hotline is 1-800-273-8255. For people who self harm here is tumblr link with major numbers and hotlines for your region: http://insteadofcutting.tumblr.com/hotlines
know that these things are temporary solutions to bigger problems that could have bigger consequences to your health and well being and even death. Know that someone out there loves you and care about you. YOU are worth it. YOU are not alone. YOU are amazing.
I am happy to report that I am now in suicide remission. I haven’t had one single suicidal thought since Black Veil Brides came into my life in January. To know its October now and I know I can make it through even the hellish battles without thinking about suicide ever again. Makes one feel great about themselves. Cause of BVB I am now wanting to pursue a degree in creative writing next year so I can expand my writing and express myself in even bigger ways verses blogging. I plan on becoming an interviewer and writing for rock and metal magazines someday. As Andy said in an interview once “Rock Stars aren’t shit out of the sky” well neither are journalists. LOL. I have worked my ass off so forth to get to here. Its quite startling to me already that I have the inner workings of becoming a great writer. This all inspired and aspired through Black Veil Brides but its up to me to make this happen. Cause I need to make my own legacy and show this world what I made off. If you are reading this. YOU have something that makes you great too. Don’t feel down that you don’t have anything to show the world yet. It will come to you in the most beautiful way possible. Keep your head up high. Stay strong. Be positive. Always remember “Never give in, Never back down.”
BLACK VEIL BRIDES ARE THE MUSICAL BATMAN’S OF THIS EARTH. THEY ARE ARE UNSUNG HERO’S. THEY ARE SAVIOURS. THEY MAY CALL THEMSELVES NOBODY’S HERO BUT IN REALITY….THEY ARE HERO’S IN THE LEGION OF THE BLACK THAT GIVE US THE TOOLS TO LEAD ON ALEGACY….. NEVER GIVE IN,NEVER BACK DOWN.
Written by: Mariah L. Hanna
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